from the outside world-object

this is a diary entry made slightly public:

i read a couple of the "places" poems (the edited versions--in case it's not obvious, this blog is where i write first drafts [i shouldn't, but something about the anonymity combined with the public-ness of blogging makes me feel, like, safe, maybe? and inspired?  does this mean i'm vain?]) yesterday, and people liked them.  i was not expecting that.  the only other reading experiences i've had have been mediocre at best--that one open mic when i looked up, after having read, at a sea of blank faces, and the workshop classes where i knew my stuff wasn't good enough.  but yesterday people were taking the writing seriously, and they liked it.  i don't quite know what to do with this information, but i'm grateful.

now if only i could figure out who will publish my 200 page book.  on the grounds that, if the stuff i read yesterday is decent enough for people to like, the stuff in the book is similarly decent, this is my question.

anyway.